I wish to begin with a kiss
and find the evergrey
to flood, to fill one more delusion
that satisfies my woes…

One dream, one breath,
One more flat line to pace,
Another night I tolerate
The filthy shit that seems to be my face.

Another night goes by…

I need a sound,
I need a voice that speaks my name,
A different eye to recognize
The tortured fiend that used to be myself.

Beneath my secret smile,
I lick my curse.
Another fading light,
Another night.

I wish, to become the machine I so despise
and feast on cries,
To dissolve and fly
and drown inside my ugly lies…

I wish to sleep,
I wish to smile,
Deep down inside
I wish to covet my denial.

It’s growing darker with each breath

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Fireflies navigate me,
You did enough to break me,
Headstones indicate the path I have to take…

Never have I failed to endure my torment,
Never have I stained my prideless eye,
With this disgusting pointless fiction you call cry…

I close my eyes and sleep on my own,
I close my eyes and dream on my own,
I look inside and feel there’s nothing left to heal,
I close my eyes and die on my own.

Break,
I break in silence…
Fall,
I fear to breathe…
200.000 cuts that left me bleeding,
No one’s here to hear me screaming…

Hours burn through,
My eyes feel so demeaning,
Can I infect you to receive another lie?

Better to forget any goddamn feeling,
Better to succumb in a restless feeding,
To eat my prospects and my fantasies away…

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Faces down,
I greet you with another fall.
Faces down,
Just breathe without a sound.

Touch me merrily,
Strike me gently,
Cuddle me hard again,
For I am he who grants you life…

Burn, Dark, Beat me gently,
Frown, Drown, Hold me down,
You’re blessed to forget.

Faces down,
So scared to look around,
Lonely shades of grey,
I think I’m one of them…

Faces down,
So scared to look around,
Lonely shades of grey,
We breathe without a sound…

Faces down,
I’m in need of another scar.
Faces down,
So scared to breathe aloud…

Whisper bluntly,
Pry about me,
Lick my pride again,
For I am he who brings you light…

Flee, Scared,
One more denial,
Scorn me, Mock me,
Hold me down,
You’re blessed to forget.

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Alone, again…
My only friend and I
Alone, once more
Licking the mirror…

Give me another smile,
I love to look inside your eyes,
Give me another touch,
My god I feel so cold…

I am cold fever
I am Judas’s tainted lips
I am everything, I am anything
I am tears of grief that slowly drip

I can’t recall
How many nights I’ve spent
Alone, once more
My self infection…

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Thrice held another scream,
In time to kill my dream
Down lies, the cosmic fiend,
I think it has my face…
Here comes, the jester dance,
A blur inside my eyes
3rd scream, deliver me,
I know he has my face…

And the screams in your dreams
Are growing louder than hell,
The pain arrives, you smell the fear inside you.
And the screams in your dreams
Are growing louder than hell,
Inside the silent place you’ve always been.

Scream one, delirium,
The voices hunt me down
Chimera, seducing bane,
“I want to know your sins…”
Sneak inside the nightmare,
1.000 deaths to come
Just one more, creeping in, drilling on, burning through,
“Tell me your fucking sins…”

Scream two, oblivion scars,
That burn beneath the stars
Medusa limbs invade me,
I think she has my face…
Failing light, the traitor weaves,
Beholder of my sins
3rd scream, deliver me,
I know he has my face…

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Smeared edge of a knife that went all the way,
But found no heart left.
Deep down inside,
You bite your tongue to feel alive…

Still crawling, still drowning,
You find no breath inside you,
Still freezing, still bleeding
And still you wonder why…

Deep down inside,
You’re emptier still…
Deep down inside,
You’re on your own…
Deep down inside,
Where your beasts reside…
Deep down inside,
You are alone…

Void eyes that stare at your empty shell,
But see no meaning.
Deep down inside,
You find no way to feel alive…

Still crawling, still drowning,
Still sucking pride and fraud.
Still freezing, still bleeding
And there’s no wonder why…

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Your sick remains,
The scourge of all her promises,
Shattered debris,
Inflict another wound…

Before you know,
You drink the poison of your tongue,
Another war,
Another absolution…

Unseen, unheard,
You swept the smile of your facade.
Concealed, lifebled,
You counted countless pieces…

Familiar sounds,
You turn to look around you,
Thorns in your side,
The canvas waits the final touch,

Before you know,
You drink the poison of your tongue,
Another war,
Another absolution…

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Far cries, far sighs,
The wind that slowly burns your back
Thick lies, demise,
The emptiness of slain goodbyes,

Your flesh, denies,
Another blow that brings you down,
Numb eyes, surprise,
The lady’s hand upon you,

As you see the blood beneath your wings

Far cries, far sighs,
Wild acid curses drill your mind,
Thick lies, crawl deep,
In your intoxicated sleep,

Swift glance, inside,
The shallow graveland of your past,
Dead eyes, surprise,
The lady’s hand upon you.

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Vain, it’s all I see…
You see the lights and smile
And sweep the stains of me…

Veiled, put out of sight…
So no one sees my smile
I sheathe my blood red fangs…

The wishes that you hoped to draw me near,
Are nothing but another kind of suicide,
The final act you’ve always yearned to see,
It’s me, it’s me…

For all the times your torrents brought me down,
For all the priceless moments that we used to share,
For all the things you knew I couldn’t bear,
Please die – goodbye…

Please let me spoil
Let me degenerate
Wipe out the stars above
I am the spiteful core…

Please let me spoil
Let me degenerate
Entwine your heart within
Let’s drink another sin…

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Darkness rules this empty space.
I’m  just a king of mist.
Scorn fed cold embrace.
“Can you remember me?”

Darkness rules this dreadful place.
I’m just the filthy beast.
One man bereft of grace
that wields the dagger of deceit…

“You know you have seen me before.”
She held her breath and stood in silence…
“You know you have seen me before.”
“I promise I will never let you go…”

More screaming and blood on the floor,
I will not shed another tear.
More screaming and blood on the floor,
“I will be back my dear…”

“You know you have seen me before.”
She held her breath and stood in silence…
“You know you have seen me before.”
“I promise I will never let you go…”

Dead again, Gone again,
Is this worth fighting for?
Born again, Found again,
The bloodstains on the floor…

1000 years of murder,
Damnation always wins.
1000 years of murder,
Repenting for my sins.

“You know you have seen me before.”
She took a step and lived the lie…
“You know you have seen me before.”
“I promise you nothing… Goodbye.”

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